Why can't I understand?

Why can't I understand?

x2willpower2x

[	userinfo	\|	livejournal userinfo	]
[	calendar	\|	livejournal calendar	]

wow... 48 % ... am i really that bad...?	[19 Jan 2006\|11:35pm]
Minus 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as your %. [ start with 100%] 1.Smoked. 2.Drank alcohol. 3.Cried when someone died. 4.Been drunk. 5.Had sex. 6. masturbated 7.Given a handjob/gotten a handjob. 8.Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob. 9.Been verbally sexually harassed. 10.Verbally sexually harassed somebody. 11.Felt someone up and/or been felt up. 12.Laughed so hard something came out of your nose. 13.Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before. 14.Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend. 15.Been to prom. 16.Cried at school. 17.Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store. 18.Went streaking. 19.Given a lap dance. 20.Had someone of the opposite sex in your room. 21.Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over. 22.Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house. 23.Kissed a stranger. 24.Hugged a stranger. 25.Went scuba diving. 26.Driven a car. 27.Gotten an xray. 28.Hit by a car. 29.Had a party. 30.Done drugs. 31.Played strip poker. 32.Got paid to strip for someone. 33.Ran away from home. 34.Broken a bone. 35.Eaten sushi. 36.Bought porn. 37.Watched porn. 38.Made porn. 39.Had a crush on someone of the same sex. 40.Been in love. 41.Frenched kissed. 42.Laughed so hard you cried. 43.Cried yourself to sleep. 44.Laughed yourself to sleep. 45.Stabbed yourself. 46.Shot a gun. 47.Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day. 48.Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours. 49.Been online for 9 consecutive hours. 50.Watched an animal die. 51.Watched a person die. 52.Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present. 53.Pranked somebody. 54.Put somebody in the hospital. 55.Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out. 56.Kissed somebody of the same sex. 57.Dressed punk. 58.Dressed goth. 59.Dressed preppy. 60.Been to a motocross race. 61.Avoided somebody. 62.Been stalked. 63.Stalked someone. 64.Met a celebrity. 65.Played an instrument. 66.Ridden a horse. 67.Cut yourself. 68.Bungee jumped. 69.Ding dong ditched somebody. 70.Been to a wild party. 71.Got caught stealing something. 72.Kicked a guy in the balls. 73.Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend. 74.Went out with your friend's crush. 75.Got arrested. 76.Been pregnant. 77.Babysat. 78.Been to another country. 79.Started your house on fire. 80.Had an encounter with a ghost. 81.Donated your hair to cancer patients. 82.Been asked out by someone that you never though you'd to be asked out by. 83.Cried over a member of the opposite sex. 84.Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months. 85.Sat on your ass all day. 86.Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself. 87.Had a job. 88.Gotten cut from a sports team. 89.Been called a whore. 90.Danced like a whore. 91.Been mistaken for a celebrity. 92.Been in a car accident. 93.Been told you have beautiful eyes. 94.Been told you have beautiful hair. 95.Raped somebody. 96.Danced in the rain. 97.Been rejected. 98.Walked out of a restaurant without paying. 99.Punched someone/slapped someone in the face. 100.Been raped. now repost and put your "-- % virgin" as the subject
5 Replys\|Reply?

[18 Jan 2006|09:41pm]

[

mood

artistic

]

FllmtlChcb: Hey.
x2willpower2x: hey
x2willpower2x: love your buddy profile... i <3 rent
FllmtlChcb: As do I.
x2willpower2x: lol... obviosly
x2willpower2x: yes, oviosly... no "u"
x2willpower2x: or "b", for that matter.... i am really yired.. can ya tell????
FllmtlChcb: Obviously. lol
x2willpower2x: yeah, there ya go

1 Reply|Reply?

[14 Jan 2006|01:43am]

[

mood

lonely

]

it was all too good to be true

...

Let It All Out

Lament

Reply?

	[13 Jan 2006\|05:43pm]
( all f34r the lj-cut!!! it will THRWN uuu!!Collapse )
Reply?

	[11 Jan 2006\|05:00pm]
Copy and paste this and fill it out as a comment. YOU 1. Name: 2. Date of birth: 3. Where you live: 4. What makes you happy: 5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to: 6. Do you read my journal?: 7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad?: 8. An interesting fact about you: 9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment?: 10. Favourite place to spend time: 11. Favourite lyric: 12. The best time of the year: RECOMMEND 1. A film: 2. A book: 3. A band, a song, or album: PLUS (if'n you wanna) 1. One thing you like about me: 2. Two things you like about yourself: 3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends: 4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about you.
2 Replys\|Reply?

	[09 Jan 2006\|10:29pm]
listen to the lyrics... ( disclaimer:asterisk Collapse )
1 Reply\|Reply?

[06 Jan 2006|12:11am]

English Genius
You scored 100% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 100% Advanced, and 86% Expert!

You did so extremely well, even I can't find a word to describe your excellence! You have the uncommon intelligence necessary to understand things that most people don't. You have an extensive vocabulary, and you're not afraid to use it properly! Way to go!

Thank you so much for taking my test. I hope you enjoyed it!

For the complete Answer Key, visit my blog: http://shortredhead78.blogspot.com/.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 68% on Beginner

You scored higher than 46% on Intermediate

You scored higher than 80% on Advanced

You scored higher than 70% on Expert

</table

Link: The Commonly Confused Words Test written by shortredhead78 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Reply?

[08 Dec 2005|09:22pm]

[

mood

relaxed

]

OK, first things first.

Ash, mlove, i feel so bad about last night. it was just like.. bam. i couldnt argue or anything. so i didnt. i lost it for the next day. i feel awful, and deprived.

<3

All-County...

just...yeah. horrid. horrendous. hugly. if thats even a word, which im pretty sure its not.

i get nervous around auditions. i felt great at the last audition i did (all-state). so what do i do this time?? i die of my nerves.

oh, and i have been switching instruments almost daily for the past week or so. why? my horn died. the horn im playing on does not tongue, and does not allow for intonation, dynamic contrast, anything that we are basically being tested for. yeah. bull frickin shit.

my first piece, the prepared piece (which mr. folson was anidiot for choosing in the first place because not only did it not lend itself to the instrument, it could not even be considered musical! (im sorry- thats my opinion. And my private tutor's, and the other trombone's from my school and others, and assorted people who heard our piece being practiced.) does this piece go well? NOOO. why? they should have the piece in the room-- and they didnt!! so i got to, in my nervous state, play my prepared piece from memory. yippee. i die on the last 8-10 measures. i have to stop. not fun.

scales. by this point, i am a nervous 10-car pileup. seriously. i am seriously, visibly (not to mention audibly) shaking now. to quote ian and alex (yeah, i know, not something i do very often), "you didnt sound very... brian in there." yeah. this coming from ian and alex. now you understand.

chromatic. fine, till the top-most note. what happens now? my secondary trigger activates. what.the.f--k. translation-- everything i play is dropped by 1+1/2 steps. yeeeah.

sightreading was actually not that bad. not to the point that i should have played it, but its not something i would go into a dark corner and shoot myself over.

everything else just made me want to do that.

Tonights Christmas Concert:

not to par. kick it up a notch, yall. i didnt do great on my solo, but it was better than alot i heard. and i heard alot-- i was in every single piece. which ms. denham did NOT allow time to run between pieces for. yeah.

and im still not down. i must have more faith in my life than i thought. im a lot happier. God and Ashley, with them and my friends i can get through it, whatever "it" happens to be. i luv yall sooo much! <3 !

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Saturday I gave

anodyne_telos a wet willie, then I took it back (-5 points). In May I committed genocide... Sorry about that,

bigpaintbalin42 (-5000 points). In March I turned

elfchic49 in for spitting (3 points). In June I pulled

embily718's hair (-5 points). In July I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-4988 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
x2willpower2x

2 Replys|Reply?

	[28 Nov 2005\|12:15am]
this back and forth driving of wills, and desires, thoughts and preclusions. its aggravting. its stressful. just more to add to an over stressed, overcaffeinatted wreck. im being eaten away from the inside out by people. those whoi i call m,y closest friends are ignoring me, abandoning me, rejecting and abusing me witht heir words and actions. their second hand gossip. their biting remarks and disdainful, overbearing, nearly oppressive attitudes, and blatant want to NOT talk about whats truly bothering them. when thats all i really care about, the truth, not all the bullshit everyone keeps giving me. im sick of it, and sickened by it. and it hurt, it hurts so much. just to read what happened... it hurts so bad, i want to just cry. and the only things i have to hold onto, ashley and god, they are my lone lifelines to keep me from sinking. which is not a good place to be. ive been there many times. its a dark, dank place where id rather shy away from. im not gettiung down. surpisingly, im able to keep my head above water, not get pulled under. im not even getting down at all about it, actually. probably because im already down from ash leaving. god, i love her so much. i cant say it enough. and when i do say it, it seems too shallow for what i feel for her. its frustrating. and if you REALLY want to talk to me about frustrating... nah. thats a topic better left untouched on here. but it is not ignored in my mind... oh dear god its not left alone in my mind. its just very prominent. maybe its just us. maybe its just me. but its very.. preoccupying. k. well, i will leave to go finish typing up something for english, and then finish a physics ws. yipee. ^^ (re: INTENSE SARCASM)
1 Reply\|Reply?

	[24 Nov 2005\|02:03pm]
The Cavaliers Which DCI Drum Corps are you? brought to you by Quizilla my god were almost seniors. i mean, i KNOW it, but its still not clicking. next year is OUR LAST SHOW. OH. MY. DEAR. GOD. this year was amazing. and it went by so fast. i loove you guys so much.
Reply?

[11 Nov 2005|09:47pm]

[

mood

frustrated

]

omgomgomg.
allstate is in.
and.
i.
cant.
access.
them.

so, i finally get ahold of nelson. the convo goes as follows:

x2willpower2x: hey, mr nelson?
x2willpower2x: its brian
RCN414: hi
x2willpower2x: all state results are in, but i cant access them. i was wondring if you could?
x2willpower2x: im like...desperate to see them
RCN414: can't either...they have these passwords, but we don't have them!!!
x2willpower2x: ?!
x2willpower2x: you dont have the fmea passwords??
x2willpower2x: ARGH!
RCN414: nope.....sorry
RCN414: have to run. catch you later
x2willpower2x: k
x2willpower2x: cya
RCN414 signed off at 9:37:34 PM.

THATS RIGHT FOLKS! noone knbows who made it! the results are in but nobody's home. GAH!

im very frustrated. and not just asbout this.

5 Replys|Reply?

[11 Nov 2005|07:29pm]

[

mood

insightful

]

ARRGH!!!

theyre in (all-state results), but you have to be F-----G FMEA member (re: band director, you stupid lazy hannah/nelson) to access em. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH

Reply?

	[31 Oct 2005\|07:23pm]
" Here lies: Two strangers, enraptured by passion. Two lovers, entwined in harmony. Two best friends, engulfed in sorrow. May they rest in eternal bliss, together. "
3 Replys\|Reply?

	[20 Oct 2005\|08:58pm]
O-60 is a great description.. and yes, it feels like im stuck on the audobon. im sick. physically, and psychologically. i want so badly, i need, desire is to great to be contained. must contain! is lust for true love wrong..? music is more and more becoming life. day by day. if its possible for me to love music even more. i cant do dci. "$2000 is too much, and 500 dollars is too much to get u up there once a month. and i dont wnat you leaving that much. you need to be here sometime." yeah. right. fuck that. i can only do it until im 21. i cant do it while im in hs. so when? during college? im only going to be able to marching band for 4 more years my entire life? to get to that point of excellence and joy and, what, "youre done". and i would rather be anywhere BUT here. she still doesnt get that. if she ever does. i think the name "joyce" is so ironic. and i really just want to get away from that name. so im going to stop talking.
1 Reply\|Reply?

[20 Oct 2005|10:16am]

You are a
Social Liberal
(63% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(30% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Democrat

Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid
Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

2 Replys|Reply?

[18 Oct 2005|02:21am]

[

mood

full

]

The Slow Dancer
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDm)

Steady, reliable, and cradling her tenderly. Take a deep breath, and let it out real easy...you are The Slow Dancer.

Your focus is love, not sex, and for your age, you have average experience. But you're a great, thoughtful guy, and your love life improves every year. There's also a powerful elimination process working in your favor: most Playboy types get stuck raising unwanted kids before you even begin settling down. The women left over will be hot and yours. Your ideal woman is someone intimate, intelligent, and very supportive.

Your exact opposite:
The Hornivore

Random Brutal Sex Master

While you're not exactly the life of the party, you do thrive in small groups of smart people. Your circle of friends is extra tight and it's HIGHLY likely they're just like you. You appreciate symmetry in relationships.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Battleaxe

CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor or The Sonnet

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: x2willpower2x

2 Replys|Reply?

[13 Oct 2005|09:58pm]

How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven
Name
...believe in true love?
Your hands say	I'm always here even if you have to reach for me.
Your eyes say	You're amazing.
Your hugs say	This is where you are meant to be.
Your kisses say	I almost can't believe you love me.
Your body says	I want to wake up beside you.
Your heart says	I love you.

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Reply?

[07 Oct 2005|01:23pm]

Your Personality Profile

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise.
Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself.
You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books.

You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life.
You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world.
A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

1 Reply|Reply?

[06 Oct 2005|08:44pm]

[

mood

content

]

Leave a comment and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written...

8 Replys|Reply?

	[06 Oct 2005\|05:47pm]
I wanna know 21 things about you. Fill all the questions out.. no blanks! 1.Your Full Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Fave Movie: 5. Fave Song: 6. Fave Band: 7. Fave Food: 8. Most Embarassing Moment: 9. Are you a virgin? HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush/attracted to me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I ask you out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you: 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me? 13. Do you think I'm a good person? 14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)? 15. Do you think I'm Hot? 16. Would you call me just because? 17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they dont involve you? 18. If you could change anything about me, would you? 19. Would you have sex with me? 20. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? 21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
5 Replys\|Reply?

navigation

[	viewing	\|	most recent entries	]
[	go	\|	earlier	]

Log in